Voices in my head

This working from home/daycare thing? It is killing me today.

I need to win the lottery so I can actually enjoy my time with the baby during the work day. Of course, if I won the lottery, I suspect both my love will both rock the stay at home dance, so it wouldn't just be me enjoying the daytimes with the baby.

Dreams of becoming filthy rich aside, maybe I'll just hope my prayers of a 2 hour nap happening are answered.

I wonder if there is a local support group for stay at home fathers who also work from home. I think some sympathetic ears from folks in the same situation would do wonders for my current feelings of frustration.

Meh.

/whine

For the record, noradannon rocks several varieties of discotheque for filling my work day with interestingness and great conversation.

I seriously miss viewing porn at work and getting turned on/that thrill that I'm doing something 'naughty'.

Why, you ask, would I be sharing this? I just reviewed a site for work and realized (after about 3 minutes of staring at it, that it was a porn site. A rather interesting porn site, actually. sometimes German porn isn't all that fucked up. who knew? And yet, here I was, taking an academic interest in the things necessary to do my job and viewing the layout and functionality with a more critical eye than I was the images of a young fraulien taking it like a pro.

I realize that repeated exposure to nekkid folks/porn/physical contact desexualizes it, and for the most part, I think many things need to be desexualized, but this is kind of worrisome to me. I mean, yeah, I'm reviewing this for work and in that context, I probably shouldn't be getting turned on - wrong place, wrong time and all. But my fear is that this will bleed over into my non-work life. If that happens, then what the hell am I going to use the internet for?

If any of y'all out there are Linux users and could help me out with the install of a wireless air card, I'd be most appreciative. My work laptop is the first machine I've ever been exposed to linux on, and while I can generally find my way around, the finer points of getting external hardware to be recognized are currently beyond me. If you can spare some help, you'd have my gratitude and an IOU for drinks and dinner.

The details so far:
HP pavilion dv6000
AMD Turion 64x2 1.6GHz
1 gig of ram
32-bit operating system
running vista :( and fedora

following the install steps for the verizon usb wireless card install (which are woefully inadequate - basically just "put the cd in and run it") and instructions from Ken Kinders's site (http://kenkinder.com/evdo-pc5740/). We managed to get it working for the vista end of things, but Fedora doesn't seem to want to recognize it. It looks like it installs okay - running:

/etc/ppp/peers/1xevdo

we get:

ttyUSB1
115200
debug
noauth
defaultroute
usepeerdns
connect-delay 10000
user 6175194764@vzw3g.com
show-password
crtscts
lock
lcp-echo-failure 4
lcp-echo-interval 65535
connect '/usr/sbin/chat -v -t3 -f /etc/ppp/peers/1xevdo_chat'

But when we run:

/etc/ppp/peers/1xevdo_chat

We get:

# AT$QCMIPGETP "login" name used for MobileIP, which usually matches your MIN.
# AT+GSN ESN in hex
# AT+GMR firmware revision and build date.
# AT+CSQ first number indicates the signal strength above -109
# dBm (in
# 2 dBm increments). A value of 7 or higher (-95 dBm) can be
# considered adequate. 31 is the max. (Possible values in
# Audiovox PC5740 are 0, 7, 15, 23, 31.)
# AT+CDV=*22899 Update PRL. at+cdv=*22899 | OK | Lost carrier.
ABORT 'NO CARRIER' ABORT ERROR ABORT 'NO DIALTONE' ABORT BUSY ABORT 'NO
ANSWER'
'' 'ATTEV1&F;&D2;&C1;&C2S0;=0S7=60'
'OK-ATTEV1&F;&D2;&C1;&C2S0;=0S7=60-OK-ATTEV1&F;&D2;&C1;&C2S0;=0S7=60-OK'
'AT+CSQ;D#777'
TIMEOUT 70
'CONNECT-AT+CSQ;D#777-CONNECT'

Help?

Wow, does this feel relevant.

Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)

You are justifiably concerned about plans at work, even if it might make more sense now to relax and go along with the program. Carefully define the assumptions and agreements of any relationship, for there is room for misunderstanding. Clarify anything you don't know, but try not to cover your uncertainty with dogmatism.

Other news:

Endgame was fun. I think I have a direction for Jonas now, so feeling at loose ends all event shouldn't happen again.

There is some stuff I should probably write about the nature of friendship and how it relates to me, but I suspect that is for a later post. Right now, I have to get some work done.

I'm out.