I was trying so hard to please myself...

[beled_el_djinn]

Tonight I went to the WPI practice for the first time in way too long and while I'm as sore as if I spent a whole weekend as an NPC, I feel pretty darned good.
I must admit to some trepidation with my decision to attend practice - in the few times I've been back to Realms events, I've always felt the awful weight of everyone's ideas on who I am, what they think I am capable of, etc... and I found it hard to live up to my weird legend. But tonight, I think for the first time in, what, 15 years?, I didn't get the "Oh, you're Meerkat!" reaction that I've come to dread, and I can't even describe how awesome that felt. It was nice to be just a face in a crowd of mostly n00bs and earn people's respect based on my (rusty) skills - Oh, Accelerant how you have wronged me! - and not my reputation.
I've got a lot to re-learn, and even more to learn, but I think I've found a great group of folks who can help me with that. So it looks like for the foreseeable future, my Mondays will be spoken for.

Comments

[marcus-sez-vote.livejournal.com]

Leave the headshots at the door.

Unless you know you're fighting chodes. ;)

Be well.

[beled-el-djinn.livejournal.com]

But headshots are what make the world go round! And how else am I going to maintain my kill to death ratio when I get into those 13 on me scenarios?