I was trying so hard to please myself...

[beled_el_djinn]

Tonight I went to the WPI practice for the first time in way too long and while I'm as sore as if I spent a whole weekend as an NPC, I feel pretty darned good.
I must admit to some trepidation with my decision to attend practice - in the few times I've been back to Realms events, I've always felt the awful weight of everyone's ideas on who I am, what they think I am capable of, etc... and I found it hard to live up to my weird legend. But tonight, I think for the first time in, what, 15 years?, I didn't get the "Oh, you're Meerkat!" reaction that I've come to dread, and I can't even describe how awesome that felt. It was nice to be just a face in a crowd of mostly n00bs and earn people's respect based on my (rusty) skills - Oh, Accelerant how you have wronged me! - and not my reputation.
I've got a lot to re-learn, and even more to learn, but I think I've found a great group of folks who can help me with that. So it looks like for the foreseeable future, my Mondays will be spoken for.

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[conspiratrix.livejournal.com]

If this WPI practice is in my general vicinity, feel free to stop by sometime before or afterwards. If you come by at the right time, I could even cook you some tasty dinnerz. :)

[beled-el-djinn.livejournal.com]

I was actually pretty close to your place on the way home and had it not been 10pm would have probably payed a social call.

I got into Worcester an hour early for practice, so maybe next time I'll take you up on that offer. I could even drive you home from work if you wanted to forgo the whole train thing.

[conspiratrix.livejournal.com]

Sounds good. :)