beled_el_djinn: (dubious)
2012-08-05 11:05 pm
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Oh where oh where can my baby be...

Did I happen to lend my copy of The Woman in Black (the 1993 version, not the remake) to one of y'all? I was of a mind to watch it, but it wasn't where it should have been in the DVD collection.
beled_el_djinn: (Default)
2012-07-25 07:27 am
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I'll talk but you won't listen to me...

I got a call from my mom yesterday, telling me that a highschool friend of mine committed suicide on Sunday. Oddly, I'm feeling more upset about the fact that I don't feel too upset about this than I am about a friend dying.

I believe I last saw Steve some time back in '96 or maybe '97, so it wasn't like we were close any more, but he was a staple of my high school existence. The thought that I can't ever just randomly bump into him again or search him out and catch up on our lives isn't hitting me like I thought it would. I mean, you spend enough time gaming in an ass smelling basement or driving to larps together and the bond that is formed should be stronger than just a random acquaintance, right? But then I keep coming back to the fact that sometime during college, I went my way and he went his, and that this is a normal fact of life - friends come and go and sometimes you stay in touch and sometimes you don't. In this case, we both did the latter.

I guess I just sort of wish that I had made the effort to keep in touch. Not that I am under any sort of delusion that I would have been able to save him if I had, but I can't help but wonder about the positive ways we might have impacted each other's lives had we stayed in touch. That and maybe I'd actually be feeling something about Steve being dead other than this abstract notion of sorrow.
beled_el_djinn: (dubious)
2012-05-02 06:08 pm

Through their own words they will be exposed...

Sort of fell off the posting wagon already, but in doing so I realized something about my relationship with writing.

Many of you reading this have heard me talk about Naked Hippy Camp and my experiences there. For those of you who don't know what I am talking about and are too lazy to click the link, Naked Hippy Camp refers to a series of camps collectively known as Farm & Wilderness. The mission statement for the camps is as follows:

Guided by the Quaker belief that the light of the spirit is present in every person and the belief that people working together can create a more just and humane society, the Farm & Wilderness Foundation sponsors year-round experiences for young people and adults that emphasize the building of community through the values of cooperation, simplicity, responsibility, empathy, spirituality and service.

Of particular relevance to this here little ramble is the first 16 words of the mission statement. Every morning after breakfast, every camper and staffer goes to morning meeting, where everyone sits in silence for 15 - 20 minutes. Nobody talks at all, unless "the spirit moves them to do so". Some days everyone just sits in companionable silence, meditating or reflecting on what the day might bring or what was experienced in the previous days. Other days, one or two people will stand up at random intervals and just talk about what is on their mind. As weird as it may sound to someone who has never done this, purposefully setting aside some time as a community to just experiencing each other with or without words is an incredibly awesome way to start your day and I truly do miss it.

To bring this all home, I realized that I only really want to write when the spirit moves me to do so. I'd like it if the spirit moved me to do so every day, but to just make a post for formality's sake seems pointless to me. So yes, I will likely not post every day, but I will hopefully be posting more with things that I feel are necessary to share with my community for one reason or another.
beled_el_djinn: (Eye2)
2012-05-02 05:00 pm
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Some mistakes were built to last...

I sort of love this scene. Apart from Nathan Lane's over-the-top performance, I really love the bit about the balloon at 5:38. Not that I spend a whole heck of a lot of time pondering God and the good in humanity mind you, but that descriptor has always stuck with me.

beled_el_djinn: (dubious)
2012-04-27 11:41 pm
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But your new shoes are worn at the heel...

So all today I'd been thinking of things that I wanted to write about so as to start my daily post experiment on a great note (whatever that means - i'm still not certain, really), and all today I've been drawing a blank. This actually has been something of a theme with me and writing recently and part of why I decided to dust off my journal; I've been having the hardest time just sitting down and writing about anything that isn't directly related to educating a client, and it is sort of killing me. I mean, I've never found writing easy, but this current trend is sort of ridiculous to me and also something of a huge pain in the ass as I've still got two NPC writeups and two text props that have to get done before the Aralis event. Not to mention that I also should come up with advertising blurbs for Lloyd's items.

The truly stupid thing, to me anyway, is that I have no issue describing exactly what I should write, but that there is some sort of disconnect in my brain which won't allow for the translating of the ideas from words I am speaking to words I am writing. I've always had that problem, ever since I can remember, but in the past, it was a bit more mild and I could fight through it with just a little effort. These days, more and more effort is required and with the way life has been recently, I'm all out of spoon, as the saying goes. So I feel as though I either need to hire a secretary who takes dictation (he he, I said 'dic') or invest in the Dragon Tools software if I want to get any serious writing done any time this millennium. Interestingly enough, I actually wanted the Dragon Tools software for a while now, although I've always kind of worried that if I started using it, my writing skills would atrophy that much more. But I sort of feel like this is an unreasonable fear, so maybe I'll make an expedition to Best Buy on the morrow and see about picking it up

Huh.. Guess I had something to write about after all. Who knew? And on that note, I think I'll pack up my virtual quill for the night, for lo, I am tired.
beled_el_djinn: (dubious)
2012-04-26 01:19 pm
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Like a break in the battle was your part...

It has been a long time since I have posted here and this makes me sad. Not that anyone still on LJ is really missing all that much in terms of my life but still, there was a time wherein I was posting every day and it isn't like the thoughts and feelings I had then aren't still here.

Clearly an experiment is called for! I'm going to start trying to do a daily post again and do my best to avoid just endlessly spouting how much I hate my job (I hate it a lot) or inundating y'all with anecdotes of just how awesome my son is (he is awesome).

Right, that is all for now. Carry on citizens.
beled_el_djinn: (Ouch)
2011-10-17 10:13 am
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I shall carry hope within my bloodied hands...

Wow was that a rough event for Marco. Despite this (or more realistically, because of this), I had a wonderful time. It has been a very long while since I've come home from an event both physically and emotionally drained.

There is much more I could write on this subject, but most of it is for the PEL and not public consumption. Suffice it to say that I owe thanks to all the PCs and NPCs who made this weekend what it was.
beled_el_djinn: (Kevin)
2011-07-07 10:12 am
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Back to the fact I'm the mack and I know that...

Today's retro video flashback:



I can't hear this song without thinking of cruising in Darth with [livejournal.com profile] metabomber. Good times, yo.
beled_el_djinn: (Eye2)
2011-07-05 04:10 pm
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I'm young, I'm wild, and I'm free...

My love and I were sitting on our bed with the baby yesterday, just watching him play with the pillows and making sure he didn't dive head first onto the floor, when he took one of the pillows, folded it in half and proudly proclaimed "A book!". Then, opening up his newly made book and he said "The end" and closed it again. The cuteness, it slayed. Upon later reflection, I find myself amazed at the imagination and associative leap that particular moment entailed.

The daily grind of wrangling a toddler sometimes makes it hard to remember that you've got a little person in your care who has their own likes, loves, desires, sense of humor and ideas of how the universe should run. I value the moments like the above not only because of the humor and love they engender in all of us, but because they also remind me to stop and just soak in all the wonder and joy present in every moment I spend with our son.
beled_el_djinn: (Homework)
2011-05-25 03:21 pm
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Finger licking good...

While I was looking for the video to Sugar is Sweeter, I ran across this. Those of you who were into the definitive lineup of the LoA (with Jade 4U on vocals) may find this interesting:

beled_el_djinn: (Eye2)
2011-05-18 05:00 pm
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Its time for Veggie Tales...

The poor boy is sick, which means that I'm getting an impromptu two days off of work. I'd be a lot happier about the time off if it weren't due to the little guy suffering. Still, I get to spend time with him, so I won't complain.
beled_el_djinn: (Rays of light)
2011-05-17 11:54 pm

Lords of Light!

This is currently making it's way to me and should arrive Thursday if the transit gods are kind.

I've been wanting a copy of this series for almost 30 years at this point and I am so stoked that I'll finally have it and will one day be able to sit down with my son and show him one of the greatest cartoons to ever come out of the golden age of the 80's.
beled_el_djinn: (roxxor)
2011-05-05 11:20 am
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Point me to the sky above I can't get there on my own...

I like to listen to music while I work, especially if I'm doing some sort of manual labor or repetitive task.

Last night, while preparing the boy's supper, I had Dig Up Her Bones playing and was bopping around the kitchen while arranging food on his plate. Cue the boy wandering in with my love; he takes a moment to listen to the music and then starts doing this odd little headbanging dance. If I hadn't been streaming music from my phone at the time, I totally would have tried for a video capture.

My little horror punk rocker. ♥
beled_el_djinn: (Homework)
2011-05-02 11:31 am
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If dreams are like movies then memories are films about ghosts...

Today's introspective question is "who is my Maria?". I'll let y'all figure that one out on your own.

Been on something of a retro-ish music kick today and rediscovered the following:



Enjoy.
beled_el_djinn: (Default)
2011-03-31 01:01 pm
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beled_el_djinn: (larping)
2011-01-31 01:51 pm
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The truth is, you're the weak and I'm the tyrany of evil men...

I think I may need some more sleep as I'm totally dragging my ass today. The work gods are kind, however, and things are fairly light, so at least there is that.

7V this weekend was definitely a good time. Lots of clandestine maneuvering makes for some interesting, if not, at times, stressful fun. I seriously need to get my notes down and organized by tonight or I know I'm going to forget something.

There was more I wanted to say, but after having to listen to a client drone on and on about a billing issue, I can't remember what it was. Oh well, I should get back to work anyway.
beled_el_djinn: (Default)
2011-01-17 11:31 am
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These are my intentions...






Getting diaper changed and play cloths on   10 minutes
Eating mid-morning yogurt snack and cleanup   15 minutes
Getting into snow suit, boots, hat and mittens   20 minutes
Convincing toddler that his favored stuffed animal won't survive the snow   05 minutes
Getting squirming & crying toddler and sled out the door   02 minutes
Getting no longer squirming & crying toddler into sled   01 minute
Pulling toddler in sled through 2' of snow while breaking trail for what feels like 6 hours   15 minutes
Time it takes for toddler to start crying when he realizes that daddy is 'out of steam'   30 seconds


All I can say is thank all the gods for Veggie Tales because by the time I got us back in the house, I was in no condition to do anything other than hit "play" on the dvd player.

Lessons learned here: Until he is old enough to climb a hill with a sled and then ride it down by himself, sledding is a two adult job. Also, if this is how outdoor excursions are going to be for the conceivable future, then I need to start doing more cardio, because daaaayum.
beled_el_djinn: (Default)
2011-01-06 02:48 pm
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It's 2AM...

I do believe I ♥ the man who did this. Charles Babbage would be pleased, I'm sure.
beled_el_djinn: (Default)
2011-01-06 09:23 am
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I pray to God that this breath will last....

I thought I'd share my current musical obsession, since F+tM seriously deserve the adulation.

Something about this song just hit me this morning and resonated so hard that I haven't been able to stop listening to it.



And now, back to the grindstone. One of these days, if I'm really good, maybe my inbox will read 0 for a few glorious moments.

a guy can dream, can't he?
beled_el_djinn: (cheaky)
2011-01-03 03:54 pm
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Save my life I'm going down for the last time...

Perhaps I laughed harder than I really should have at this.